Jen's free night

So, Thursday is usually my night off.  For years, Brown Eyed Man has been off shooting at the gun club on Thursdays and the kids were always at their Mother's house.  Things have changed dramatically this year and Boy is off at school for 10 weeks and Girl is working in the evening (sometimes on Thursdays, as she is tonight). 

I have always looked forward to Thursdays.  Don't get me wrong.  I love my family, but Thursday is Jen's night.  I can do whatever I want.  I can get my secret Christmas or Birthday projects done.  WHATEVER.  But always, throughout the last 12 years, my beautiful black dog has been here.  Until July 26th. 

Now, I almost dread my Thursday nights.  I miss her so much.  Words can't even begin to describe the loss I feel.  I want to walk in the door and see her whole body wagging.  I want to ask her if she wants to go get the mail and see her go hog wild.

Could she be more beautiful?  Could I love her more?  She rests on my nightstand now right next to her picture.  I say goodnight to her every night.  Am I crazy?  Have I mentioned how much I miss my best friend?  My beautiful black princess.  The most beautiful black dog in the whole world.  This dog I love more than anyone else in the whole wide world.  I miss singing to her and lying on her bed.  Letting her roll on the living room carpet when Brown Eyed Man isn't home.

My free nights kind of suck now.