Project J...ennifer

So look, I've really lead a pretty "Leave it to Beaver" sort of life.  Two parents who stayed married and raised two kids.  I never saw or heard them argue.  I married a guy from the same type of family.  We're pretty simple, as families go.  No major drama.  Most drama, if any, happens outside of our nuclear unit (Brown Eyed Man, The Boy, The Girl, and me).

So I guess what I'm trying to say is that I have no had to overcome any major obstacles.  I wasn't born in the ghetto, didn't have an abusive parent, no drug problems, etc.  However, I have overcome some obstacles, they just weren't really newsworthy.  Such as my ability to speak in public. 

I finally, after 10 years at this job, feel comfortable speaking to large groups of people.  Mind you, I only had to do that once every other week at first and then I had to speak to a different group once a month.  But just the other, day as I was speaking to a Senator, I started thinking "Hey, I am knocking this out of the park!".  I'm confident and getting my point across and not saying anything stupid.  Then, one of the guys I was with told me what a great job I had done.  I was shocked.  The other day, the same thing happened only it was a lady I don't even know and she said how well I was running my meetings.

I'm 43 and figuring it out.  Anyhoo, the public speaking is just one of the "obstacles".  I had a hard time telling people what I really thought.  I would let some people roll over me and not stand up for myself and I've somehow managed to stop letting those things happen too.

I've been accomplishing huge projects at work, I spent 3 years as the President of a Sporting Association and I'm in my 4th year as the Chair of a State Board, but what I'm not good at, and I need to adopt as a project, is myself.

I shared with you  recently that I had lost 30 pounds and had 25 more to go.  How far do you think I've gone since then?  No where.  Still at the same 30.  Over the last few days, I decided that I really need to focus on accomplishing this goal and I need to look at it like public speaking or being more assertive.  It's a goal, but it's also a life-style change.  30 was great, but I need 25 more.  At least 25 more.  I think I got comfortable because I was way more comfortable than when I had weighed 30 pounds more.  I was able to buy new clothes and people were complimenting me and I lost my drive.

So, Here I am on day one of Project J...ennifer.  I logged my food, I've done three days of Jillian Michaels is trying to kill me videos, and I'm going to do a better job of planning my meals and activities.  I'll let you know how it goes.

I just added this picture because I like it.

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